Today was the last day, at least for a while, that my dh and I will be cleaning our church building. We’ve been doing this weekly for just about a year now. We’ve enjoyed being a blessing to our church family in this manner. However, the time has come for us to move on and to prepare to be parents again. There is a big adjustment period when adding a new baby to the family and we will need a few months to get back to normal, or to adjust to the new normal!
While vacuuming the sanctuary tonight I became aware of feeling very selfish for quitting, for wanting to be where I know I’m supposed to be. I guess there is a part of me that feels I need to give back to my church. However, I know that God and my dh want me to be focusing on my family and using what energy I do have to the care and feeding of them. Now is the time for my church to support me, again. I know that they do; that they understand the need and the desire to be at home.
And really I am looking forward to this time. I feel like I’ve cut activities my family would enjoy because I knew I needed the energy to serve my church. Now, we will be free to do fun things like visiting our church family and ministering in a different way.
I started to cry at the supper table tonight. Overwhelmed and emotional. K wanted to give me a hug. CJ asked, “It’s just too much for you, Mom?” Daddy answered that yeah it was. For 6 and 7 these two girls have big hearts and huge understanding. I so appreciate them. Earlier in the evening they had wanted to know why we wouldn’t be cleaning the church anymore and I told them that we needed to get to know our new baby and get used to having him/her around. They were pretty excited about that too.
